Is Physical Attraction Important?

I finally saw some additional photos of the online girl and discovered that her looks aren't what I originally expected. I don't want to seem shallow, but shouldn't there be at least some physical attraction if I am to progress further? Or are all women the same and that the only determining factor for their looks is their skill with makeup? Part of me tells me to continue trying to date her in order to gain experience and confidence with women. But the other part of me tells me not to hurt her anymore than I already have. I stood her up once and argued with her thrice. I don't think a future inevitable breakup will do her any good. I'm not saying that I'll abandon all future contact with her. I'll continue having her as a good friend, it's just that the feeling might not be there anymore.

Chinese New Tiger Year

This year, I went to "buy lean" for red pocket money as usual. There's a bit more money because one of my elder cousins got married. It made me remember once again that I'm single and never even went out on a date. But then I quickly remembered that getting a girlfriend is not for showing off, but to share feelings with. I'm confident that I can get a girlfriend soon, the question is if it'll happen this Tiger year.

It's Been A While...

A couple of days ago, I started talking with a woman. Yesterday, I asked her out on a date and she said yes. We'll be meeting on Monday, which is TWO goddamned days later! I'm having freakin' panic attacks now and this'll extend for two whole days. Damn, I blanked out just now, not knowing what to write about. I hope this won't happen too much during the date. Calm down, calm down, I just need to be my best self, I just need to be my best self. As long as I don't ask her about her job, hobbies, and family tree, I should be fine.